Do you ever have moments of revelation at the most unusual times? I was driving to the gym this morning, ready to teach my regular RPM class when it occurred to me that I would like to post a mid year update at the end of June. Then I thought about it some more and realized that none of the plans I have made have come to fruition, not one. As someone who wants to plan her life more, I'm strangely OK with this and actually sat at the traffic lights at one point and had a good giggle. "You make plans and God laughs" - so true!
That said, I've made a career out of changing course lately out of a need to focus on what I really want to do with my life RIGHT now and in the turbulence of all of the changes, I'm moving on, I'm making plans, I am POWERING up!
Taking control and making decisions, even if they're unpleasant at the time is really invigorating and living my personal truth is a fantastic feeling even if things don't always go to plan. That's OK. Taking full ownership and responsibility for your actions truly puts the power where it belongs.
As well as the major biggie of winding up the PT business, I've also stopped teaching Bodystep/Core (due to my whacko pelvis) and I've decided never to compete again either. As a sport (if you could call it that), I hate that it's based on comparion of looks rather than the performance involved in getting up on stage. A few years ago, I would never have had that opinion, I certainly have no regrets about competing but I've well and truly moved on. Instead I've made the decision to honour myself by being lean, loving life and looking awesome just because I deserve to. I don't need to base my worth on a couple of pudgy balding men (complete with requisite bodybuilding hip pack) judging my "symmetry".
I been reading of a few post comp struggles and struggles with bingeing and destructive behaviours around food and my pearl of wisdom for today is to POWER UP. Often overeating is borne of a belief that we're powerless to control our relationship with food and powerless to control our Inner Gollum/binge monster or whatever. Set your boundaries and be definite - stop treating it and yourself as some scary entity that won't like you any more if you apply a little discipline . Shut your demons up and put them back in the darkness where they belong. Give your Gollum a good whack...with your paddle!
Speaking of which, I have been taking my own advice and am now feeling (and looking!) so much better!