A different perspective

I have to admit that lately I feel like I've been playing a "waiting game" with my life. Do you ever feel like you're in 'flux' for want of a better expression. It's as if the light has been on, but I haven't been home. There have been so many changes this year, where I started off with a thriving PT business and online business, a goal of a figure comp and a budding career as a fitness writer... I'm finishing the year as someone who has dialed back their online business big time, resumed her pharmacy career, albeit part time and become a banging (I've picked this one up for Shelley, I'm banging everything) RPM instructor who's ready to take it up a notch in step.

After suffering from depression, I've been totally reassessing everything from the way I eat to the way I train to the way I sleep and how I choose to live. The SSRIs help but sometimes you just need the penny to drop so you can rocket your way out of there. Last night, the penny dropped. It was a moment I've been anticipating for a long time. I was reading about someone's struggle with something or other and they said something to the effect of "BEING A GROWN UP MEANS YOU DON'T DO EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO." Bingo!

If that isn't a good reminder to get on with the job, I don't know what is!

Had a great training session with Shelley yesterday - we threw around 50kg bench presses without blinking - can't believe the improvement really! Taught RPM this morning - had a big class for a Wednesday morning and backed it up with Step later on. I'm looking forward to taking the "Step Improvement" journey - if nothing ever comes of it, then I can rest easy in the knowledge I have become a better teacher anyway.

Here's another great quote from Roger Gould: "The only way failure is sure to happen is if you don't try to meet the challenge. If you put in sustained intelligent effort, you will learn something and that is automatically a success" (that's how I'm thinking about my RPM!)

So what's with all this "Greatest Love of All"?

with thanks to Lululemon Athletica for the great graphic.

Whitney Houston once sang "Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all."

So following on from yesterday's post, how do you learn to let it happen? It's the missing piece of the puzzle, the notion of honouring oneself, in order to be present for ourselves and those dearest to us. If we nourish ourselves we can step out of our comfort zone to inspire others. It's like the "place your own lifejacket on before your children" scenario played out in all pre flight procedures, how can we give, if we're drowning?

Find a quiet spot in your mind and ask yourself what you really want. Be patient, because the answer isn't always apparent. If at first you don't succeed, keep trying. I want............so that.......... is the usual script. What I really want is wrapped up in being the most authentic self I can be - that who I am is an accurate reflection of my values and beliefs.

For example my manifesto for being kind to myself involves nourishing my body with food that makes my body sing and my performance skyrocket. I honour myself by choosing food and choosing exercise that aligns my head, my heart and my love of music. Training without my mate or my Ipod just doesn't cut it. Being kind to myself sometimes means saying "no" to something rather than saying "yes".

Your wants need to be balanced with a sense of gratitude about the life you have been given. Today I am grateful for the opportunity I had to teach RPM - I felt better than I did last Saturday and I am grateful for the connection I get to make with my trainees every week. I get a lot of pleasure seeing everyone enjoy themselves. I am grateful for the connection I have with my girls.

Be still, walk lightly, dance on the outside as well as the inside- see the beauty and potential around you!

If you happen to see a crazy lady moonwalking down the aisle at Woollies, you just may have sighted me. Oh, and I'll also be the one carrying the asparagus, salmon and potatoes for a splendid dinner. Wahooo!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1KjpyHX7X-o

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

Chorus:
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Chorus

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love